family gathering isn't as happy as what i expected
they always fail me somehow
especially on the dining table
in fact
one of the worst time i had with them
is when we eat together
although i like to eat and i hardly have bad emotion when good food is in front of me
they still manage to rise my unsatisfactory and anger
the kids are super annoying
this may drop the spoon and the next might be crying
cant you all just sit quietly for 5 minutes so that i can eat in peace?!
then the elders are uneasy about everything
they are worry about this la,that la,whatever la
come on la~
just hold your peace and let others decide
if you are still uncomfortable
then you decide
haih~
troublesome~
the time a family eat together isn't the best time to have fellowship?
why cant any of you appreciate that?
you all not only wasted that opportunity
you all also wasted my initiative of spending a great time with you all
i'm dissapointed, as always do
another thing
i hate it when you all treat me as if i'm your investment
i'm not the shares that you all have bought from the stock market!
my existence don't necessary need to give the return that associate with your contribution
i wonder......
do all parents have the same thought?
they give birth to a baby so that their child could give them money back after they had grown up?
or they are expecting their child to bring them traveling around the world when they grow old?
i will be disappointing if that is the truth
shouldn't parents give birth to a baby simply because they wanted to complete a family?
shouldn't it because they wanted to pass on their love on the next generation?
shouldn't it be as simple as that?
i really don't understand why parents always expect the financial return from their child rather than the non-financial one
do you know how i feel every time you demand return from me?
do you know how i feel when you keep asking asking me to further my studies at oversea?
do you matter what i actually feel .......
now i tell you how i feel
i'm not grateful if you give me this life to make money for you
i don't appreciate your blood that flows in me if you don't see me as your daughter
its not worth of living
if i know my life will be like this
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