home alone???room alone

its raining outside...

it has been raining since afternoon
it was dark even before night
sometimes
the lightning just strike through the sky without any notice
its nice to see
but not the great thunder that followed

along this day
i can see many had gone home
and i?
i'm left alone
my room mate went home too

this is the first time i'm left alone with myself after my resit result was announced
so happen to be that i get the result for my appeal on today
well,its no good
however,i still have to face it
i need to go through this

room alone is dangerous
all the negative thoughts keep attacking my mind
my worries is overwhelming
defense drop simultaneously
causing my optimistic cell had died many

its so hard to fight the feeling when all of them are potential possibilities

how am i going to face the remaining days?

i'm so afraid to move on