this day finally comes

i never wanted to cheat anybody
nor i want to hide anything
but my religion is always an issue when it comes to relationship

in the past
my mum was extremely against non-believer
i mean my boyfriend
i don't understand sometimes why is she dislike him so much just because of religious background?
isn't it unfair to him?
and that makes me today
i never want to tell anybody when i got one
because i know...
i know there is somebody whom won't compromise

it my fault that i can't escape from falling in love with non-believer
i was struggling too
i love him,i wish we can be the same kind
but i don't want to end up like some christian out there who always brainwash people,asking people to church
i don't want make that request from him
if he ever want to go to church
i would like it to be willingness from deep inside his heart and not because of my continuous invitation

and today
i'm experiencing what my ex experiencing i guess
i face questions from his family on my religious background
hopefully he is not shocked when i said i'm baptized

honestly speaking,
i don't know whether will they dislike me for this reason
because as i see them praying for ancestor today
i think problems might arise if i really decided to go far with him
we both have no choice
he is the eldest son while i'm the eldest child in my family
we have our own responsibility and role
we can't just ignore our family,or should i say the tradition
he have to do all the praying procedure
and for me
i can't leave my GOD because he has done so much for me

so,how our future will be?
or we can't even manage to make our way to the future?

i do worry that his family would mind my religious background
i also do worry that we gonna end by this issue
but i'm prepared
if one day we can no more be together
i'm contented
because i cherish every moment i could spend with him
even from the day we started
for i have expected this from the very beginning