i always been that kind of girl
positive,cheerful,helpful,passionate....etc
i encourage people whenever they are down
i speak good words to cheer people up
but i'm not perfect
in fact,that wasn't me at all
since young,i was told how to behave
i was in that kind of environment whereby i don't have any right to misbehave
not even the right to have bad tempered
so,over the years i have learn to keep all things to myself
put on a mask of not showing anger,unsatisfactory,or common language i would say face color
and that makes me today
but now
i'm so tired of being the person whom everybody wants me to be
i'm not good at all
i had bad tempered
my temperature rises fast and i will threat people an eye for an eye
i'm revengeful
i'm not sacrificial
i'm also a pessimistic
i can't see hope for future
i don't see sunshine from my world
i don't get to smile often
i'm totally the opposite person of me today
after all
i have hide all these negative personality of mine for the sake of the people around me
i wanna be a better person for those people i love
but now......
after everything that happened
i can't find any good reason to move on anymore
why should i?
i only received disappointment and complains
i should have stay selfish
and have never share out my happiness and positive strength
or the most basic one is not to share my precious weekend to those with no credibility at all
i feel so demotivated and nobody would have understand my good means
i'm gonna give up on being good
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