as i gets busier and busier and have no time for him,
this is what i occasionally do, i video call him
so that at least we have a chance to see other rather then just texting
i still remember the first time when i made the video call he was so happy
maybe he never expected that nor came across this function
and we had so much fun with it
it is so precious to me whenever i get to see him
therefore i will always try to smile more so that i could cheer him up
sometimes he will also do all the funny things to make me laugh throughout the conversation
i am just glad that we have this technology
Dear past Felicia,
ReplyDeleteThis is the hardest night for me, to acept the truth that u leaved...
I really wanted to say, I can't let you go, but I know once u said that, u r not kidding, nothing I can do to save the relation...
Even I'm prepared for this a day ago, but I still cannot accept this truth...
I really sad that u can't wait for a few more months to see the future, our future life after I started work...
Sorry that I'm not yet financial indendent yet, but this half year, I had been well prepared for u... But u give up before our promised date..
Maybe u dunno, u taught I dun like travel, actually u r wrong, the only reason i dun go is no one is going to support me if I go travel at this time, u know when u r not in Malaysia, after my FYP is done, I went so much of places...
And I said I'm opposite situation of u, I have a strong feeling to find u at UK, I missed u so much... I'm checking airticket to give u surprise once I finish my last paper but... That's why I always wanted to update ur address. Now the effort is not surprising u anymore..
Deep inside my heart I wanted to yelled: PLEASE DUN LEAVE!!! BUT u said ur feeling is fading, that's bad... I dun need to say anything anymore... Farewell...
I'm writing here because I wanted to say to the the one have the same feel to me, I dun mind to speed up my step, but just need to wait for a graduation... U can't wait.... OK fine...
Hopefully u r not coming back to this blog so I can continue to share my feeling here...
Now that's she's gone, I'm a zombies without a soul, I dun need my body anymore, who wan it, then take it... My soul is dead....
MK