DISAPPOINTMENT
him and i have not been spending time together for quite some time already
i was busy and he is still busying
however, i never blame him for neglecting me anyway
not even as i am writing this
this is because i see that he did put effort of giving his precious time for me
and i appreciate that a lot
sounds like everything is fine right?
i pretend it to be
i was exhausted after everything end
i was missing him like mad
therefore, i wish i could have a hug
a real tight and warm hug
i wish i can have someone to share my feelings
but what i have is only four walls around me
yet i can withstand that
guess what torn my heart
it was when i asked whether did he have anything to ask since we had been less catching up with each other
he replied no
literally tears overwhelm my eyes again
and this time is heart break
he really has no curiosity of how i spent my days without him huh?
he has no concern of how i have been lately?
whether i have eat well..sleep well...feeling well
he don't even willing to give me a smile while i still can see him
as we had dinner just now
i was actually trying hard to hold my tears already
that wasn't because i am sad or what
but seeing him sitting in front of me
i feel so good and sentiment consumed me
maybe he was too busy worrying his studies and didn't notice me
it happened a few times that my tears flow out of my eyes
not to let him worry
i give an excuse of the food is so spicy till the extent i can't bear
i supposed he believed that
so, from happy mood i got myself into heart break
am i expecting too much from him?
am i not understanding enough to understand he can't effort to give anymore extra attention since he is so busy?
i give him patient
i give him space
i give him assurance of i will be fine
but can he give me what i want...
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