1st exam in 2014

at the first place, i didn't welcome 2014 with any celebration
because it wasn't a very happy thing for 2014 to come by

# reason 1
i gets older

# reason 2
i am getting nearer to my second last semester's final exam!

i had been noticing that many people are posting about what they first did in this brand new year
mostly they are about what they first eat, first special occasion, etc
as for me,
the first big occasion awaits me in 2014 is this final exam for my second last semester

i had been through a hard time along it and i made my way to the final at last
but that is not the end
i some more have to suffer from exam and all the worrisome of i might get failed to the extent of after Chinese New Year
it a long time of waiting to end this feeling of uncertainty

i knew the exam won't be easy
thus i sacrifice all my leisure time of hanging out and having entertainment just for revision
i didn't go for countdown
i didn't even have time for my sister whom came back from India
honestly speaking i had never been so hardworking before
yet...my performance is not up to my expectation

i got my first after-exam heartache when my first paper ended
i didn't manage to attempt all the questions due to time constrain
and the first question is out of my imagination and expectation
it was hard
other questions requires a lot of critical thinking too when there is no time for thinking
haih...

then, i got my second after-exam heartache yesterday afternoon when the second paper was done
initially i was satisfied that at least i manage to do most of the questions
though i had a 9 marks question left out because of time constraint
but....
when i was arranging those working papers and notes at a later time
i noticed that there is this extra piece of questions paper i put on my study table of which i overlooked earlier
it actually consists most of the answer for the theory question that came out yesterday!!!
OMG!!!
those marks just by pass me like that!
i think my lecturer will get heartache too if we still failed her paper since answer is already given
haih..

speechless...

*continuing having heartache for the rest of the night