its another sleepless night for me
i repeatedly roll from the left to right and to left again on the bed and yet still unable to enter sleep
my brain seems like refuse to co-operate and let me rest although i was tired and sleepy since 10 pm
haih...
dear brain, do you know that i have to wake up early tomorrow morning?
i am suspecting whether am i too nervous for the job?
or am i excited?
in the meanwhile i am also worry that i will forgot to bring anything important tomorrow
already checked my alarm, documents, clothes and even packed my bag
what else i could have missed?
maybe all these uneasiness of mine arises for a reason
it is due to everything is happening too soon
i first had my interview on Monday and signed my employment letter this afternoon
then i have to start work by tomorrow
changes took place so fast that maybe i am not adapted to it yet or come to response to it
same thing happened after i completed my last semester in TARC
i still feel like a student everyday and not prepared to be a working adult
what i had in mind during that period was to continue study or have some holidays like how others would spend their semester break
though i do search and browse through some job vacancy during my free time,
i wasn't very serious about it and so lazy to decide which company i should send my resume to
until lately i finally make up my mind because i don't want him to feel burdened by my thought of going vacation anymore
only if i start working,
my time will be occupied and he won't feel guilty for not accompany me and leave me to loneliness
only if i start working,
i won't have time to say anything about vacation
at the same time,
i also need to start accumulating my working experience if i can get to enter the MBA course
in short i think it might be a win win situation for both of us
so right now i am standing at the one of the most important junction of my life don't know which direction should i head after
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