guilt

final exam result was released today

well
its not that good
i missed out one
what an unfortunate

perhaps that happen for a purpose according to god's will
since i pray so hard for my studies during that period
therefore i don't blame anybody for it
i tried my best
that's all

i feel guilt because i have failed those people around me
my love one~my friends~my mother~
for they have put an expectation on me
especially my love one
however
i didn't manage to achieve it
i apologize that i disappointed all of them

toward my love one
i know your worries and sorrow after seeing my result
although you deny it
but your voice said otherwise
i'm sorry for being the reason of your sadness
i'm sorry for not making you feel proud of me

i'm truly sorry for everything
i'm such a useless junk