whole stack of worries

i never like beginning

whenever school starts
whenever settling down in a stranger place
whenever building up a new friendship
whenever entering a new relationship
we tend to face with much uncertainties and insecurities
some can cope with it very fast
but not to me

to be honest
i'm not good with handling these things
i'm not good in socialism
i'm not good in handling stress
i'm not good in dealing with uncertainties either

in fact
i don't really like working on something that i'm not familiar with
i'm also not comfortable with unknown possibilities that might occur anytime

however
we can't avoid those situation from happening in our daily life
how helpless it is
haih

i had just done my resit paper on Saturday
as usual
i have a bad feeling about it
i admit that i'm a pessimistic
but i think i better from those optimistic
at least i don't have to experience disappointment again and again

i know by worrying it does not help
i just can't get out from that negative feeling
it is conquering me

i have done my best on the test
hopefully God will do the rest
and i wanted to believe that he will surely do
help my unbelieve please.............
i don't want this thought of failing the test again fill my mind all the time
i don't want to leave my friends
i still want to work with them

concerning my friends
i guess all of them experience something difference during the sem break
this is because i can feel their changes
obviously the two Capricorn
one has become very playful and unpredictable
another one has become very emo
as a friend
i do concern about them
but not every concern can be express
not every concern will be appreciate too

i'm actually worrying about the emo Capricorn
she looks so down
i suppose that was because her love one have to leave her temporary

this is surely their hard time
for it is not easy to maintain far distant relationship
much trust and faith is needed

unfortunately i can't do anything for her
of cause i wish i can cheer her up,perhaps a little
but in this kind of situation
she just need some time to be by herself

right here
i wanted to let her know
i will always be her support
i will also always be there for her
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