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due to some reasons
it has been a long time i didn't spend my time over here

i miss writing blog a lot~

this is a place where i can freely express my feeling
when i don't write
i tend to be very sentimental and sensitive
a little thing  also can affect my mood

well,
many things happen along this period of time
unfortunately i didn't manage to write everything down

there are simply too much of wonderful memories that i wish i can remember
i don't want to remember all those unhappy memories only
i don't want to remember a miserable past

during my final exam period
i was under pressure as anyone else
i can't sleep soundly
i kept dreaming about all kinds of weird and scary dream
that cause me to have a terrible time
i was suffering mentally
and when the exam begin
its hard to fight those negative thoughts
the exam was killing
i don't have any confident that i wont fail any of them
i'm worry and frustrated about my own self
why cant i perform as good as my friends?
i did my very best to do revision too
haih~
disappointed.......................

when everything come to an end
i had a great time with my beloved friends
i spend every moment as if it will be the last
for i cant be sure that i will definitely proceed to advanced diploma with them
i such a useless
only me alone who might not be able to continue the study journey with them
they are very good partners
i will surely miss them very much

i'm now back at home
missing someone special at this very moment
i'm sorry if i cant go back to you
maybe we shouldn't come to this stage in the first place
its simply not a right time

yet
i love u~