Its such a sunny and hot Saturday but to me it feels so gloomy...
* reason 1
it is weekend but i need to wake up early in the morning for breakfast. i am having a replacement class from 10 am-2 pm.
* reason 2
my friends invited me to their convo and since i will be in college, might as well i go to met them. It supposingly to be my convo day too but it didn't turn out that way...in fact, i need to wait for another year and god knows will i make it or not next year?
So,shall i cry for my incapability once more?
Seeing all my friends put on the graduation attire i just don't feel right. at one point i am happy for them and i am glad that they manage to complete such a difficult program. but on another hand, it reminds me how weak i am and how i failed the exam so many times...
For their previous convo during diploma,i didn't showed up. that was because i couldn't deal with the fact that i am the only one left behind. i was so deeply fallen in sadness.
i actually have some worries too yesterday about how am i gonna handle my emotion.at last i decided to attend their convo is because i don't want to miss out the very last chance of seeing them in the graduation attire.i shall share their happiness as a friend and not focusing on my stupid emotions.
* reason 1
it is weekend but i need to wake up early in the morning for breakfast. i am having a replacement class from 10 am-2 pm.
* reason 2
my friends invited me to their convo and since i will be in college, might as well i go to met them. It supposingly to be my convo day too but it didn't turn out that way...in fact, i need to wait for another year and god knows will i make it or not next year?
So,shall i cry for my incapability once more?
Seeing all my friends put on the graduation attire i just don't feel right. at one point i am happy for them and i am glad that they manage to complete such a difficult program. but on another hand, it reminds me how weak i am and how i failed the exam so many times...
For their previous convo during diploma,i didn't showed up. that was because i couldn't deal with the fact that i am the only one left behind. i was so deeply fallen in sadness.
i actually have some worries too yesterday about how am i gonna handle my emotion.at last i decided to attend their convo is because i don't want to miss out the very last chance of seeing them in the graduation attire.i shall share their happiness as a friend and not focusing on my stupid emotions.
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| Tarcian geng! it was very long time ago since we last took a photo together too bad that some were absent |
i don't
know why he was so happy that day. i
thought the hot weather will make him feel uncomfortable and resulting in bad
mood. whatever
it is, i am grateful that he was happy and able to serve as my mental support. without him around i definitely will be very down and quiet and don't know what to do.
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| this is us having fun with my friend's huge teddy bear |
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